~LoN3Ly M3~

I REALLY NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE BADLY

2010-02-28T13:03:00.001+08:00

I dun know. many thoughts have been coming up in my head... i dun know what to say or what to tink about. is what i'm thinking the reality??? is what i guessed the truth? i really want to know the answer badly. why? why? why? RAH!!!!! this is killing me. this is worse than any sickness that one can get. RAH!!!

Confused

2010-02-27T18:21:00.002+08:00

I'm really confused now. Maybe like what my encik would say also, concuss and concaved. there is not much like but i just like the thing. hahas. but seriously, i'm quite confused now. i really dun know what to think or how to feel... CONFUSED!!!!!

i'm not going to say what made me confused. but i really am. suggestion anyone???...

我以为

2010-02-01T14:49:00.003+08:00

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他,有那么好.
你说会懂我的失落,
不是靠宽容,就能够解脱.
我以为我出现的时候刚好,
你和他,就说要分开.
我以为你,已对他不再期待,
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
全心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
我以为终究你会慢慢明白,
他的心已不在你身上,
我的关心,你依然无动于衷,
我的以为只是我以为.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却一天天的失望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却输的那么绝望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.

爱？

2010-01-25T14:31:00.000+08:00

有些人的人生，是直達車
有些人卻是慢車，中間總要經過許多站，經歷許多人…

有人總是下錯站，坐過頭，不是錯失了窗外風景，就是錯過了身旁的人
沒有人知道，能陪自己坐到終點站的人，究竟會是誰….
相愛的人，真的就能一路到達人生的終點站嗎？

Revive :D

2010-01-01T20:32:00.000+08:00

Okay, i am going to update my blog and get a new skin. hahas. Surprised? But i wont be updating tt often bah. But still, u can always check :D

Long time no post

2009-05-26T11:46:00.000+08:00

It has been quite long since i last posted. A lot of things had happened and some of which are definitely not happy ones. I don't know how to look at all these problems already. I think i'm just running away from them but i don't think that makes any difference even if i do care about it.

Anyway, council term is coming to an end. I don't know what i will feel or what i'm feeling now. It's just so weird to not be working closely with them again.

Anyway, i know it's time to start mugging. But i just dun seem to be able to settle myself down to study. Why? Can someone help me?

RAH!!!

~JuSt M3~

Emo

2009-04-18T17:06:00.002+08:00

Hmm, i think many of you want to know the reason. I think. Maybe none of you are interested at all. Nvm, i wanna rant anyway, so just fuck off if you're not interested at all. I'm not forcing you to read anyway.

1) I am trying my best to balance my work and relationship and there you go again. I see you with 'him' again. It is during election day itself. Don't you have duty too? Even if you don't, isn't it suppose to be your duty to try to get the class to listen and vote intelligently? And there you go again, doing god knows what. I was simply trying to have a good lunch with her and there goes a call and there goes the perfect lunch. How do you think i feel when i walk past the class and see them mugging and see you with 'him'? Maybe it's just me again, but this time, i really don't care who's at fault. You're outta my concern already. I don't care what you do anymore. I'm trying to accept. But here i am, trying to fucking balance everything. Just fuck off.

2) I feel extremely terrible when boss went out along to get the notebook for me. I was back in school at 5+. Even bang went to get the things with him in the end. I feel super bad.

3) Fucking academics. Why is it that everything seems so much harder now? Why the fuck are the lecturers so boring? It is almost every lessons that i fall asleep. I even have a hard time to stay awake during tutorial. Fuck this shit.

4) Even teachers have problem with me now. That is at least what i think.

5) just many other minor stuffs.

Darling, i'm sorry that i can't spend more time with you. I promise i will find the time right after the camp. Sorry. I'll have time de. I'm not that busy.

~EmO M3~

Home

2009-03-29T10:39:00.000+08:00

What the bloody hell is that? I don't know why but the hatred to go home is like worse off now. Maybe boarding is really a good idea. Why do we always have to fight? And why cant you keep the house like it is a house. A simple big bag of stuffs can also be gone. Where the hell did it go? I'm damn bloody pissed!

Boarding

2009-03-27T17:56:00.001+08:00

Hmm. I'm staying in NJ boarding school now until may. I may not really be updating or be online as much. Sorry

~JuSt M3~

Lost

2009-03-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

Council

A word that was placed before everything. Why is it so blur now?
What is the purpose of me in it now?
I don't know anymore.
Friends? Leadership? The experience?

I don't know how to see it now. Is it me that loses the focus? Or you?

I don't know why but that word seem like a stranger to me now. It doesn't give me the passion or love that i used to have.

But then again. What am i without council?

~EmO M3~

IMU

2009-03-16T17:03:00.000+08:00

~JuSt M3~

Sian

2009-03-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

I'm going to feel sian for this week. SIAN!!!

~LoN3Ly M3~

Today's feeling

2009-02-24T20:50:00.002+08:00

There's something fishy about today's Pisces New Moon and it has your name all over it. Individualism isn't one of your strong points, for you'd rather swim with a school than have to venture off on your own. Nevertheless, you could still be feeling a little stand-offish now, making forward movement harder. Instead of waiting to see how everyone else responds, just express what you are feeling, even if you then go off to spend some time by yourself.

Okay, today i felt so left out of the class. I don't know why. I just felt left out. And seriously, please stop all the actions in class. Yes, the class know by now but it's still quite disturbing. It's not like there's no one in the class. Maybe you don't feel it, but it's quite gross to other people.

I don't know how to express this also, but it's just weird and f up.

~v3XeD M3~

Oops

2009-02-15T16:43:00.001+08:00

Sorry for not updating for so long. Had been busy. Hmm. Very busy actually.

Anyway, i still got lots of work to catch up. Sorry. Update next time.

~BuSy M3~

Gosh

2009-02-01T19:18:00.002+08:00

Cool, many things happened. But this is what i hate:

YOU

I don't know how to see you now. I mean it. I just don't seem to understand you now.

~JuSt M3~

Seriously

2009-01-29T23:43:00.000+08:00

I seriously don't know how to look at you now. You're so restricted i would say. I don't know if you think of it this way. But it's just.... NVM. Do what you like. This is what you desire (may not be completely you. But i don't want to make things hard for you)

I'll do what should be the best way. STAY AWAY FROM YOU and yes. I've really got nothing else to say now.

~SaD M3~

Nice Quote

2009-01-26T17:36:00.000+08:00

The heart is willing... but the wallet is weak

Hahas. found this off the internet. Hmm. Quite true for most people in love bah. I believe i dun have to be in love oso like that liao.XD

Hmm, anyway, today went to guan yin miao to pray. Hope that this year will be a smooth year for me. It's my Alvl year and i dun want to screw it. I will work hard. For myself and my motivation =)

Prayed for some other people too. Hope that they can get the same blessing too. =)

~JuSt M3~

CNY

2009-01-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

Okay, today went to letts house to play and at the same time, do work?!?!?!

Hahas, yes, you didnt see it wrongly =)

Nothing much to say coz we played and played? Hahas...

~JuSt M3~

Disappointment

2009-01-23T16:50:00.002+08:00

Today is such a disappointing day. I hope that you do reflect on your own action if you read this. Maybe i'm wrong but you really changed to a person that i never thought i knew.

Anyway, as a good friend, i urge you to think about it. I really don't hope that you will turn to someone that get so detached from people just because of someone else.

The thing is that I don't understand why you have to leave. You should understand what i'm saying. Anw, i have realli nothing else to say now. You just changed so much, to a person that i no longer understand.

~DiSaPpOiNtEd M3~

WooHoo

2009-01-17T23:50:00.001+08:00

Okay, first of all, i need to say sorry for not updating this blog for so looooooooooooooooong

The thing is that i'm super busy over many things over this few weeks and i tried finding time to post but then to no avail. So i'm posting now. And hope that i can update more often.

Okay, so from my last post till now, it has been like 16 days. So i will go through each day slowly =)

1st Jan
So i was not at home for the whole day until night because i had celebration over the year and at the same time, went out to look for campfire things. That is roughly it, i cant rmb the details alr too. XD

2nd Jan
Had a trial campfire on this day and the thing is that i dun realli like the idea. So i quarreled with someone and decided not to talk at all. I don't understand how she thinks sometimes.

3rd Jan
The day started with me going to school early in the morning to meet up with the council retreat comm and finalise some things. It went pretty okay. And then, we talked. It was like the first time we talked since so long. I meant talking as in trashing things out and not the normal kind of talking lar. It was quite good since i knew why she was angry at me. I didnt spill everything since i thot everything is alright alr.

4th Jan
So this day is a free day (not exactly thou). I was at home resting and taking a break from the long hours of not being at home and lack of sleep. So i was thinking what i shld bring for council retreat and so, i decided to not pack yet. hahas.

5th Jan
So the day started off with me packing my things into my bag for council retreat and getting to school super early just to get my ass on the bus to go to malaysia. Why do i sound angry? Coz i was too early. Sian, waited for so long. Ok, so the bus ride took freaking long (but it's okay, coz the lunch we had is superb. i just realised how much i can eat too. XD) and then when we got to the hotel, we put our things down and the rest had free activity time. Why the rest? Coz council retreat comm had some things to plan and do. So i went to recce for a good location for council bonding activities. Thou the place was not the ideal place, but i guess it was the best we could find in the hotel. =) So we played some games and bond as a council. I hoped that everyone enjoyed it but i certainly did =) Then night came and we had some reflection session. I heard a lot of things and also shared a lot of things. I realli think it's then, that i felt that, yes, i'm so attached to council. Not the council exactly, but lots of councillors. I know i cant live without them now.

6th Jan
Hmm, so the day started with me not wanting to wake up early. Hahas. Then we had sharing session and then some fun then went on with BBQ night =). It wasnt really BBQ coz we just take the food the hotel prepared for us. Hahas. And i loved the council party. It rocks. I was the host and i kaa jiao many ppl. XD

7th Jan
Back to SINGAPORE =)

I'm going to cut short from here. =)

8th Jan - 11th Jan
Tanking work, sai kang. Stay over. Yes, that's about all.

12th Jan - 16th Jan
Orientation <3

~JuSt M3~

Last Day of 2008/ First Day of 2009

2009-01-01T16:54:00.002+08:00

Okay. SO the day started bad on 31 Dec 2008. Then i was super reluctant to go out oso. Until bang call me and asked me go. Then i soft again and went out. Was fun. Didnt realli regret. Anw, some things that i wanna say.

2008
1) It is the most fun year i had so far. I hope that next year will be a lot better.
2) There are some people that i really need to talk to
3) There are many stupid things i did.
4) I dont like your attitude now. I think you should be doing the same to me too if you request me to do it.
5) Was out the whole nigh

2009
1) have a great year
2) A level rocks (being sarcastic)
3) Dont do so much sai gang.

~SlEePy M3~

Why?

2008-12-27T11:05:00.000+08:00

Why cant i just be happy today? Was it you? Or was it me? Nvm about it. Coz i really dont want to think about it now.

Had my orientation camp today. And it's not like stay-over camp. It's a freaking day camp. Nvm. It's ok. At least all of us get to play and have fun.

After that, went to KAP to eat. Hahas. After eating, guess what? We went to play cards again outside. Till like 11.30? And yes, this post is made 1 day after. But i still think i should post it here. =)

Anw, i have something to say to my fren but doubt that it will ever be read. Anw, the thing is that you should stop comparing. Everyone is different and comparison will do you no good. Especially if it's your close friends and stuff like that. Sometimes, people do undergo emotional changes and emotional periods. And you should understand better than i do. I have nothing else to say to you. I think i still take you as a fren, if not, this paragraph will not be here at all. Oh wells, it will not be read anw, so what's the point. If you really read it, i don't know what reaction you will have but i seriously think that you should give it a serious thought. Jiayou bah. Bye

~JuSt M3~

Feel the LOVE tonight

2008-12-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

See more funny videos and funny pictures at CollegeHumor.

Okay, today, i just spent like almost the whole day out with my mum. And today, it made me realised how little time i had spent with my mum. How little i had talked to her. How far we had been away from one another. And stuffs like that. I dun know why all these are happening.

I sort of know that long ago but decide not to acknowledge that fact of not spending enough time. But today, i felt so guilty. I dont know how i should be feeling but then, when my mum talked to me and stuffs, i felt like i owe her a lot. More than i could repay her. I dun know whether i should be feeling this. But yes, i feel guilty. I do have my worries too. I wanna be like a normal person trying to be nice to their family and stuffs like that. Why cant i just?

And why cant you be more understanding and stop being so sarcastic? I hate the way you talk to me now. I dont like it. I just dont like it. Why is it like this? I wished i had told you. I wished i had clarified everything with you. I wished i can talk to you more. But nvm. You're not going to see this anw. So it's okay. Just be urself. Maybe one day u will realise.

~LoVeY DoVeY M3~

Pictures

2008-12-24T14:53:00.001+08:00

I just started using picasa and found these photos. It's cute pics =)

~JuSt M3~

Council X'mas Party

2008-12-21T11:40:00.000+08:00

Okay, it was fun and i just got back home from letts' house. =)

So the day (or rather yesterday) started with going to school for walk-in practice and then chionging to RJC for NHSS meeting. Yar, and i am the secretary for the society. Sian diao. =(

Anw, went to council x'mas party. Woot. =)

Pics here. More on facebook. =)

Then went to letts house to play and talk. Hahas. I was the first to get knocked out. seriously tired. XD

~TiReD M3~

FUCK

2008-12-18T13:55:00.002+08:00

I will really slaughter you if you meddle in my life again. Stop telling people things that i don't want other people to know. If i share with you, it means i think i can trust you. Now, i cant trust anyone. I'm going to keep everything to myself now.

Just FUCK OFF now.

~AnGrY M3~

Chalet

2008-12-16T11:24:00.001+08:00

Hahas. At chalet now. Got no wifi. Rah. At macdonald posting this. Com going no batt. Ltr =)

~JuSt M3~

Long time nvr update

2008-12-13T12:05:00.004+08:00

Okay. I shall just briefly update on what happened for the past few days that i seemed to be away.

Monday
Went out to bugis to shop with fren =)

Tuesday
Went back to school for meeting at 8am in the morning and apparently, the IC was late. RAH. And then after that, wanted to go out with fren but then have walk in practice. So went for the walk-in prac until 5+ and then rushed off to the airport to pick Mindy, YS and other ppl from other school. (ZOE, i know what happened there at taiwan. Muahahaha...) then went home with YS and then got home by 12 (i think..)

Wednesday
Went to Miss Huang's house to play mahjong. Wee. It's the long awaited mahjong session. Wee. Super happy. We didnt play with money though. Then we played until about 3+ and i went out to recce Boon Lay with my dear mei mei(guess why the font is in hot pink. HAHAs.) =) Super happy coz i haven been there for a long time. And i sent her home coz it's super late alr. And guess what, we went to 'qiang' the pink seats. Hahas. XD

Thursday
Went to recce Pasir Ris with Mindy and then went to recce queenstown on my own. Bloody rain. Soaked my whole shoe. Now it's wet... SAD =(

Pasir Ris Recce

Queenstown Recce

Friday (which is yesterday)
Supposed to have training but my leg hurts from the walking and soaking of my feet. And also, dun know why. My leg hurts from hip down. Ouch =(

Then at night, met up with Rachel outside VCH and went to watch performance =)
WORLD YOUTH CHORAL FESTIVAL (WYCF) There're lots of my frens there. So cool. Met some of them that i didnt see for so long. =)

Okay, that's all for now =)

~JuSt M3~

Wee

2008-12-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

I just changed my blogskin. Have been using the old one for ages. Thus, making a new one.

This will also be a temp one thou. It's about christmas. Since christmas is coming up =)

Anw, lots happened today.
Dun noe how i should react to it now that it's like this.

NVM

~JuSt M3~

Things I need to say

2008-12-03T23:07:00.001+08:00

1) Happy birthday yu xiao. if u're reading this, then good. u can see my well-wishing words =)

2) Time, understanding, trust, security and simplicity.

3) i guess i now only gave you the first one.

maybe i'm just not there yet. i'm trying to be. Give me time and i'll prove it to you.

~JuSt M3~

Short

2008-12-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

I'm just back from grad night. Super tired. So the post gonna be short too.

Tired.
Vexed.
Lack of sleep.
Always thinking of the 2 things you said.
Cant get it off my head.
Gonna think.
Gonna talk.
Gonna sleep now.

~SlEePy M3~

WHAT THE!!??!?!?!?!!!!!

2008-11-30T23:20:00.002+08:00

Do you think that i wont care that you're talking to guys too?

I finally know how my brother felt. Yes, brother. I meant you. But then again, you never read my blog at all.

This feeling is just so fucked up. It's like there are spies around you all the time. This better stop. At least i hope it will stop. Maybe i'll like to put yu rui's msn nick last time. It goes something like, 'stop scrutinising all my actions or smtg like that'

Ciao.

~JuSt M3~

So nice

2008-11-28T23:03:00.001+08:00

It's so nice to be hearing from you again after so long. It's just like days since u left singapore but i realli wanted to talk to someone. Especially after you left. =(

And especially after what happened that day. It's nice to see that you can at least come online and talk =)

Really happy to talk to you. Thou it was yet another of those rubbish sessions that we are talking about but it's really fun =)

Wee. See ya back in singapore soon then =)

~JuSt M3~

Loser XD

2008-11-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

This guy is just a loser. Check it out. XD

~HaPpY M3~

Souza's Quote

2008-11-22T17:12:00.002+08:00

It is so true. I really try to follow this too. Especially the last one.

Life's getting harder and harder. But each time i think about these phrases, i will stop thinking about how hard things can get or will get or already is.

Someone also told me not to think of the 'what if' question because i always ask myself the question. For example, 'what if i went to VJ, will i be alot happier?'

I watched one anime called 'Noein' which is about a girl with special ability to destroy or save all timespaces. And in these timespaces, the same character will be doing different thing and will think and act differently. It's like another universe but they all inhibit on the same planet. It's just in another time zone in the sense.

I kinda hope that if this is really true, the other me will go to VJ and enjoy life there. Maybe not really enjoy but maybe, experience another life.

I hope i made the right choice. But again, it's because i made this choice that i met you. Met so many friends. Met friendly teachers. And the list goes on.

Maybe i should really stop thinking about the 'what if' question. It serve no purpose.

Hehe, let me end with another quote.

"Look into the future rather than dwelling on a past you couldn't do anything about."

~JuSt M3~

1st Aid Course

2008-11-19T22:55:00.000+08:00

Haha. Completed my 24hour of first aid course. SUPER HAPPY. Wasted my 3 days. sian.

anyway, all of us passed the test. It was like super easy. The cert oso dun noe if it allow us to save ppl or to kill ppl. LOL. coz it's really easy to get.

We cam-whore like super lots. more than like 60pictures a day. and it lasted for 3 days mind u. haha.

Some pictures.
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?id=580867933&aid=49299
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?id=580867933&aid=49303
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?id=580867933&aid=49307

Three different parts. It is on my fren's album. Not sure if u can see it. Too bad if u cant XD.

~HaPpY M3~

First Aid Course

2008-11-17T07:29:00.000+08:00

From today on, i will lose my 9am-6pm until wednesday.

Replaced a fren of mine for the first aid course.

The stupid instructor oso damn irritating. Confiscated my phone. RAH!!! Then still need to take test somemore. Sian

~LoN3Ly M3~

SIAN!!!

2008-11-16T23:52:00.002+08:00

Yes. This is the first time that i edit the title. XD

Hmm. This is the first day. Still have got 4 more days to go. Maybe it will all end soon.

Next, work workwork is piling up like nobody's business again.

Why am i so busy again? Ppl enjoy their holiday and i'm working like crazy. Life's just unfair.

Actually i got lots to say. But then, it's not nice to say them here. My blog has quite some readers and i dun wan so many ppl to know. Sorry folks.

Anw, today just feels weird. The whole day.

It's quite surprising how reliant i am on you now. I don't know if it's the same for you. But it's definitely affecting me. I wish i knew what you were thinking. Realli. I want to know. I'm pretty lost now. What to do? Nvm, time will do the trick.(I sincerely hope).

I don't know how many people will recognise this. But this is what i want to say.

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T ____V W X Y Z

~LoSt M3~

Rubbish

2008-11-14T23:57:00.001+08:00

Saw this rubbish on the net just now. Does not really make sense. But anyway, have a good laugh.

~HaPpY M3~

Open Day Outing <3

2008-11-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

Wee. Had open day outing. And we are proud to be the first ad-hoc to go out for outing =)

I think we're the most efficient ad-hoc ever =)

1) Very efficient to come out with plan for open day
2) Very adaptable to all changes
3) Did our AAR (after action review) just 1 week after open day
4) 1st ad-hoc to go for outing

Yeah. I think we rocks.

Okay, so we went to watch high school musical 3. The gurls were laughing their heads off while the guys are like. hmm. okay..

Anw, we then went to play bowling. Super sucky. Coz i didnt play well. But nah, anw, it's just a game. Hahas.

Some pictures. We didnt camwhore much though open day has got the few of the biggest camwhores in council. XD

Yeah. So cool.
Purposely Leave me out XD

~HaPpY M3~

Council Outing ♥

2008-11-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

Wee. It's council outing. The 'attendance' was not that bad but hope that we can get a better one next time. By the way, this post is not posted on the actual date. XD

We went to watch movie at first and 17 ppl were there. Went to watch quantum of solace. Think that the plot is like huh but then the actions are not that bad. But i think as compared to casino royale, i think casino was a lot better. Though not as much action.

Some camwhoring pictures. XD

Guys that were there when we took this photo. =)

CIA just rocks. We took this photo near the escalator XD!!!

Then after that, we went to chong bang at turf city to eat our dinner. It's a 2 in 1 buffet steamboat. Not that bad, but is quite far from the bus stop that we alighted.

And we can practically camwhore anywhere. Hahas. We took tons of photos on the bus. XD

Rachel and I

Then after we got off the bus, we took quite a lot of photos. I dun have it coz i lost my cam. But then, Charlyn has them, will put here soon. Or can go my facebook and see =) We practically stop every 5 steps to take a photo when we are walking in to turf city. XD

More camwhoring photos at chong bang and maybe some walking ones. Haha.

~HaPpY M3~

Sleep

2008-11-05T23:41:00.001+08:00

Sleep is something i never really get enough.

Am i just dumb or what? People are relaxing at home, going out with frens and etc after their OP ends and what am i doing?

I HAD ENOUGH. IF I'M DOING, DON'T VOICE OUT SO MUCH THINGS. YOU'LL BE THE LAST ONE I WANT TO HEAR THINGS FROM. IF YOU'RE NOT HELPING, THEN GET LOST. DON'T ACT LIKE YOU CARE.

~LoN3Ly M3~

Chat

2008-11-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

Today is quite a happy day. With just a bit of PW and then went off to slack. Then was a long chat with ben and mindy. We chatted for about 6 hours and really, i enjoyed it.

I think Mindy would be really a good person to talk to. At least she listens and talks too. I'm like super talkative today. Dun noe why but then, I just find myself like myself when i really talk. I realise that i can really talk to her and tell her all the things in the world. At least i know she is trustworthy of keeping secrets and everything we said to herself.

And 1 thing. I hate people who want to know more about what happened to me and approach others to do so. I wouldnt think you would do such a thing. What a heartbreak.

And one more thing, happy birthday yu rui.

~LoN3Ly M3~

PW SUCKS TO THE CORE

2008-10-31T11:22:00.003+08:00

WARNING: THIS IS A DAMN FUCKING VULGAR POST

Why is this fucking thing torturing all of us year after year after year. FUCK THIS.

OP practice??? I think it's giggle and slacking time. WTF. I realli hate the feeling.

Some random ppl come and ka jiao our group. Fine, i can tolerate. So i went to the side to do the script. Then when i finished. Some idiot ka jiao again. Buying of t-shirt? TO BE DONE IN SCH? FUCK LAR.

Other random shit people disturbing us? FUCK YOU.

Yes, i'm sorry that the script just disappeared. But is it my fault? it just disappeared from the thumbdrive. I did the copy again and what happened? SOME FUKCING SHIT CAME SELLING T-SHIRT AND DISTURB MY TURN. THEN WE JUST SKIPPED IT. FUCK

I CANT BE BOTHERED WITH OTHERS, BUT MY GROUP BEING SO DISTRACTED?

WHAT GROUP SPIRIT IS THERE? STILL TALK ABOUT WORKING TOGETHER? WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS YOU FUCKING INDIVIDUALS THAT JUST CANT BE BOTHERED WITH OTHERS.

WHY CANT YOU ALL JUST FOCUS. FUCK FUCK FUCK.

I'M DAMN BLOODY PISSED. DUN COME PISS ME OFF FURTHER. YOU WONT WANT TO SEE THE OTHER SIDE OF ME.

FUCK

Responsibility

2008-10-27T21:34:00.000+08:00
Such an easy task to push it away.
I hate people who thinks of this word lightly and push it around.

I HATE YOU!!!

~LoN3Ly M3~

All Hope's Lost

2008-10-26T17:35:00.003+08:00
Maybe i'm thinking too much. But i dont think so.

It has been months.
I regretted it.
But it's too late.
Another few years?

I don't know how.
It pains me to see her.
I'll turn away now.
Maybe it's best for me.

Though it is not what i want.
But i just it wont pain me as much.
I guess i'll just leave.
Leave you to your little world that can no longer accommodate me.

~LoN3Ly M3~

WooHoo

2008-10-10T23:18:00.000+08:00
Finally i can find some time to make a quick post. Maybe it will be long though.

Okay, firstly, today is my BFF's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO-LIN

Ok, that aside, today was YEC. Turn-up rate was not good but was still ~~fun lar~~ okay.

Then i really dont have the time to update much. But really, i will update soon. Hahas. but the most important thing is to wish my BFF a real happy birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO-LIN

Sorry that i dont have the time to get you a present. When you free, tell me. We'll go out tgt =)

~LoN3Ly M3~

Busy Again

2008-10-08T22:38:00.000+08:00
Okay, i'm like busy again. Anw, today went for training and then went back to school to do the locker things. Sian.

In the end, decided to make it a competition to see who can lock all the lockers faster so rachel and i started racing. In the end, i won. and i think we took tenth of the time we took at the hall area.

Hahas.

~LoN3Ly M3~

Even as i'm studying now, i'm thinking of you

2008-09-16T12:39:00.002+08:00
并不是真的路过而已
也不是真的我会想你
全部不是真的是骗自己
其实还爱你爱着你
我以为我早想清楚
不由自主恍恍惚惚又走回头路
再看一眼有过的幸福

爱情好象流沙
心里的牵挂
不愿放下
明知该躲它
却无法自拔

oh baby
是我太傻
是一再的做
是一再的错
我一步一步
慢慢走向流沙

就这样，一个人继续的走下去...

~Lon3Ly M3~

Taking a break from studying =)

2008-09-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

Bird bee-again apple mac
Uploaded by bobi93

I find this video super cool.

~LoN3Ly M3~

This is darn funny

2008-09-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

You know when you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know.

I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered, saying 'Hello.'

I politely said, 'This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?'

Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear, 'Get the right f *** ing number!' and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. When I tracked down Robyn's correct number to call her, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits.

After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again.

When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled, 'You're an asshole!' and hung up.

I wrote his number down with the word 'asshole' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer.

Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really bad day, I'd call him up and yell, 'You're an asshole!'
It always cheered me up.

Then Caller ID was introduced, I thought my therapeutic 'asshole' calling would have to stop.

So, I called his number and said, 'Hi, this is John Smith from the telephone company. I'm calling to see if you're familiar with our Caller ID program?'

He yelled, 'NO!' and slammed down the phone. I quickly called him back and said, 'That's because you're an asshole!' and hung up.

One day I was at the store, getting ready to pull into a parking spot. Some guy in a black BMW cut me off and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I'd been waiting for that spot, but the idiot ignored me. I noticed a 'For Sale' sign in his back window, so I wrote down his number.

A couple of days later, right after calling the first asshole (I had his number on speed dial), I thought that I'd better call the BMW asshole, too. I
said, 'Is this the man with the black BMW for sale?'
He said, 'Yes, it is.' I asked,

'Can you tell me where I can see it?'

He said, 'Yes, I live at 34 Oaktree Blvd, in Fairfax. It's a yellow duplex, and the car's parked right out in front.'

I asked, 'What's your name?'

He said, 'My name is Don Hansen.'

I asked, 'When's a good time to catch you, Don?'

He said, 'I'm home every evening after five.'

I said, 'Listen, Don, can I tell you something?'

He said, 'Yes?'

I said, 'Don, you're an asshole!'

Then I hung up, and added his number to my speed dial, too. Now, when I had a problem, I had two assholes to call. Then I came up with an idea.

I called asshole #1; he said, 'Hello.'

I said, 'You're an asshole!' (But I didn't hang up.)

He asked, 'Are you still there?'

I said, 'Yeah.'

He screamed, 'Stop calling me.'

I said, 'Make me.'

He asked, 'Who are you?'

I said, 'My name is Don Hansen.'

He said, 'Yeah? Where do you live?'

I said, 'Asshole, I live at 34 Oaktree Blvd, in Fairfax, a yellow duplex, I have a black Beamer parked in front.'

He said, 'I'm coming over right now, Don. And you had better start saying your prayers.'

I said, 'Yeah, like I'm really scared, asshole,' and hung up. Then I called Asshole #2. He said, 'Hello?'

I said, 'Hello, asshole.'

He yelled, 'If I ever find out who you are...'

I said, 'You'll what?'

He exclaimed, 'I'll kick your ass!'

I answered, 'Well, asshole, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now.' Then I hung up and immediately called the police, saying that I lived at 34 Oaktree Blvd, in Fairfax, and that I was on my way over there to kill my gay lover.
Then I called Channel 9 News about the gang war going down in Oaktree Blvd. in Fairfax.

I quickly got into my car and headed over to Fairfax. I got there just in time to watch two assholes beating the crap out of each other in front of six
cop cars, an overhead news helicopter and surrounded by a news crew.

NOW I feel much better. Anger management really does work.

Quoted from some other site. cant rmb where. hahas

~LoN3Ly M3~

Finally

2008-08-31T00:49:00.001+08:00
Yea. Finally, holiday is here. But not for long. Practically going back to school everyday. Anyway, sorry for not updating for so long. I was too busy to turn on my com some days. Coz busy with teacher's day celebration (TDC) stuffs.

TDC things made me super busy and tired. Pictures are on facebook already. Very lazy to put here. Too tired.

Erm. Nothing Much for now i guess. Sorry, not in the mood to post =(

~LoN3Ly M3~

-=[~Teddy*]=- Torn apart. Nothing's gonna fix me back

2008-08-21T04:03:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to look at you now. Should i use the same pair of eyes and the same mentality when i look at you now? Or with that eyes that were so caring and strong and believes in everything the owner does? Or with the eyes when you were that close together?

Was it me that changed you so much? To become like this? Or did you just changed just like everyone else does?

I told myself, it's over, stop thinking about it anymore. But now that i heard this from others, how can i not react? My brain is telling me to just walk away and not care because it has nothing to do with me, but why is my hear in sharp pain? I don't know where this sharp pain is coming from. I don't know why i feel this way too. And now that i know, how can i pretend not to know about it at all?

Maybe i just deserve all these. It was all the wrong moves that i take.

Where is the cheerful me?
Where is the 'optimistic about everything on earth' me?
Where is the guy that never seem to be tired?
Where is the guy that never say die?

I guess it was all shattered when we're over it. Things just happen without us knowing and the change can be so FUCKED UP that you are not used to it. Yes, life do change, but why all on me? I'm doing so much things that i don't have to do.

I'm lacking sleep that i could have gotten.
I'm not doing homework that i could have done.
I'm suffering from stress that i don't need.
I'm thinking of you when i don't have to.

Why? Why must i learn of this new event now? Why? Can someone tell me why? Is it to make me suffer? I don't want all these. I just want to lead a decent life. I don't need all these. I hate this life I'm leading. I just wanna die. Please, just leave me alone.

~LoN3Ly M3~

Random

2008-08-19T19:51:00.003+08:00
This is a song that i listened to today and i found out that it totally tells my life now. Haha

My love is on the line
My love is on the line
My love is on the line Dil Laa liya be-parwa de naal Dil Laa liye be-parwa de naal
My love is on the line
My love is on the line
My love is on the line

A little late for all the things you didn't say
I'm not sad for you
But I'm sad for all the time I had to waste
'Cause I learned the truth
Your heart is in a place I no longer wanna be
I knew there come a day
I'd set you free
'Cause I'm sick and tired
of always being sick and tired

Dil Laa liya be-parwa de naal
Dil Laa liya be-parwa de naal

Chorus

Your love isn't fair
You live in a world where you didn't listen
And you didn't care
So I'm floating
Floating on air

Dil Laa liya be-parwa de naal
Dil Laa liya be-parwa de naal

I Am On Aiirr!

Laa liya be-parwa de naal Dil
Laa liya be-parwa de naal

No warning of such a sad song
Of broken hearts
My dreams of fairy tales and fantasies, oh
Were torn apart
I lost my peace of mind
Somewhere along the way
I knew there'd come a time
You'd hear me say
I am sick and tired
of always being sick and tired

Dil Laa liya be-parwa de naal
Dil laa liya be-parwa de naal

Your love isn't fair
You live in a world where you didn't listen
And you didn't care
So I'm floating
Floating on aiiiiiir!

My love is on the line
My love is on the line
My love is on the line
My love is on the line

Dil Laa liya be-parwa de naal
Dil Laa liya be-parwa de naal

My love is on the line
My love is...

Your love isn't fair
I Said!
You live in a world where you didn't listen
And you didn't care
So I'm floating
Floating on air!

Ohhhh Ohh

Your love isn't fair
You live in a world where you didn't listen
And you didn't care
So I'm floating
Floating on air!

Am Floating!
Am Floating On Air

"gave my heart to a careless person
gave mine to a careless person......"

Haha. It is so true. I am sick and tired. Of so many things. It's not an emo post or something. It's just tired and i wanna sleep forever. So much to care about.

Anyway, another random thing. Today, the council room door was kicked opened. Hahas. Actually, someone broke it lar. It was long broken but no one fixed it and today, the door dropped out. HAHAS. =)

~LoN3Ly M3~

Horoscope

2008-08-11T23:34:00.000+08:00
Pisces
You want to impress others at work today with your level of dedication and your willingness to be a part of the team. There's one problem though: you have so much happening in your private life now that relationships can be overly demanding. Keep in mind that you really don't have to choose between the business and personal dimensions of your life. You can have both if you put your mind and heart into it.

This is so accurately. At least for today. Sigh.

~LoN3LY M3~

National Day Celebration 2008 <3

2008-08-08T20:08:00.001+08:00
Okay. this is gonna be a long post. Why leh? Coz i dun have the time to post for the past few days. Staying back in school everyday until 8+ and some days even to 10+. Wanted to stay overnight in school to help the national day celebration (NDC) committee to pack goodie bags and stuffs but then i realised that i am too tired that i cannot be on task anymore. I am just so drained from everything. Things from school work to relationships. SIGH. Shall not spoil my own mood anymore.

Anyway, for NDC, my job is to sing, rah rah people and to act for my house, Solaris, as a mini man (something like humpy dumpy as i was using my own hand as my legs and kenneth (another solaris councillor) is my hands. Sorrie, currently dun have the photo. I'll try to upload soon.

Okay, so what was i doing for NDC??? I was the singer and actor for my house performance. Singing ROCKS!!!

ME!!!!
Yann Qi, Christabel and Rachel who is also the emcee

Also, i was the one who popped the super huge rocket blaster that shoots out confetti and other rubbish (LOL). But didnt get a chance to show. The thing was super powerful. Damn cool lar. When you twist the blaster, the impact was going downwards and all the confetti went super high. WOOTS =))

Then the celebration went on with the different houses performance, singing and NE quiz. Some questions were really hard. So we fang shui a bit. HAHA.

Anyway, some random photos during the celebration. Let the pictures say it all =)
Mok, with the WTH look. LOL =)
Ex-aqua house cap =)
Aqua
Ignis and Lignum Ppl
The stage and the people
Daniel (current aerius house cap)
Dian Feng jie jie
Singapore FLAG HANGING HIGH UP
Bright light of the future =D
Aqua cheering

SOLARIS PERFORMANCE <3

Letts kena painted yellow

Brother and I (BTW, she's the esplanade which's supposed to be durian oso, so we got her to hold the durians =))

Honoured to be with Sir Stamford Raffles. LOL. SORRY BEN =)

Leejing and I <3. I wasnt stunned okay. I was the one holding the camera, dun noe why leh. Haha. So happy to be beside a chio bu (ER.. LYING IS A WAY OF LIVING. LOL. KIDDING LAR =D)

Samarth holding the bus. SINGAPORE CITY BUS =D

Sir Stamford Raffles

Then it comes to the GRAND FINALE =) It was so good. LOVED IT. NJC, YOU ROCK <3. Again, let the pictures speak louder than words.

EVERYONE <3

ANGKLUNG

UG GRAND FINALE

Mr Teo with Aerius GRAND FINALE

Terra and solaris GRAND FINALE (SOLARIS, I LOVE YOU)

Everyone's so HIGH !!!
Yeah, the blaster. That was the one i was using too. =))))

After grand finale, took some photos, or rather, lots of photos. Class photos, winning photos, cam-whoring etc...

Jo and I
Yeah, Us again (Singer and Singer+Dancer+BEST Fren+EVERY GOOD THING THAT I CAN HAVE)

Yang Sheng, Vanessa and I
Yang Sheng and MINDY

Shaun being super gross

Singers Cam-whoring =X
Singers Cam-whoring =X
Jun Long, OIC for NDC
Kuan Loong (Amanda, if you visit my blog, i bet u'll rip this pic off here =X)
08S06
08S06
08S06
Jo, Sze Sze, Dajie and Silvesta
HAT AND EX-HAT. YEAH, WE WON THE NE CUP FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MANY YEARS. THANK YOU PEOPLE FOR THE SUPPORT, WE WILL CONTINUE TO WORK EVEN HARDER =)

Another SHOT
ZAC and GANG (Fierce sia =D)
Really fierce. LOL

Anyway, that concludes my day. Really exhausted over the past few days but holiday is finally coming. Good rest and happy weekending. HEHEs =)

~HaPpY M3~

Sleepy

2008-08-02T23:09:00.002+08:00
Okay, today morning slept at 2 and woke up at about 6.30. Guess why? Because i was sleeping with all my barang barang (my bag arh, phone, wallet, charger and more) then it was super uncomfortable. But why i sleep with them? I have no idea. Coz i just slept lor. I didnt even noe the exact time that i slept. I only know that i slept at abt 2.

Haha, then woke up and started watching anime and trying to do hmwk which didnt really happen. Haha. Then went to school at bout 9 to help out for the prop making and did it until 12+. Super tiring, i dun noe why. Haha. Then went to buy face paint with amanda and jade at bras basah. Then went to eat and went home. Super tired.

And this comes the embarrassing part. I almost fell asleep 3 times while i was standing up. The first time, i dropped my wallet, then second time, i almost collapsed, then the third time, i dropped the face paint that i bought. It was quite embarrassing considering the number of times that i did smtg weird. And then i got off sleepy and stuff.

Went home and decide to sleep first. I slept from about 5 to 7+ to have dinner and i felt so tired, that i decided that is should continue sleeping. Haha. So i just woke up. It is like 6 hours of sleep but yet, i'm tired. Life of JCians. *SIGH*

~LoN3Ly M3~

Medical School

2008-08-02T06:33:00.000+08:00
A college physics professor was explaining a particularly complicated concept to his class when a pre-med student interrupted him. "Why do we have to learn this stuff?" one young man blurted out.
"To save lives," the professor responded before continuing the lecture.
A few minutes later the student spoke up again. "So how does physics save lives?"
The professor stared at the student for a long time without saying a word. Finally the professor continued. "Physics saves lives," he said, "because it keeps certain people out of medical school."

~LoN3Ly M3~

I want to change

2008-07-28T21:13:00.003+08:00
I've never been so emo. There are just so many problem that occurred. I wanna talk to somebody. But everyone seemed so busy and i dare not tell anyone. Sometimes, i also don't know what to say too. Like so many things, until i don't know where to start from. =(

I want to talk to someone. The main source of problem comes from her. I don't know who to talk to. I don't know what i want. I don't know how i should think. I don't know how i should be feeling now. It's just so troublesome.

~~Class~~ School, dull as usual. I really kinda give up hope on school liao. I don't know how i should be feeling towards school now. Maybe it's just a place to mug and then CCA and then go home. I realli dun noe.

I hoped you'd called. But i guess my presence or not doesn't really matter to you now. I'm just yet another passerby. Maybe i was just thinking too much. Dreams, are never meant to come true.

~LoN3Ly M3~

Random

2008-07-27T21:47:00.002+08:00
Did pw with my group just now and found that it's hard to work in 5. Really, it's either me or ben stoning and most of the time, it's me. I think.. Hahas, though ben was stoning for like 2+ hrs today and was wanting to go off earlier coz he's hungry. Had dinner with yi-chieh, ben, mindy and her buddy =)

It's not bad. At JE library, ben found this book and recommend me to read it. LOL

Anyway, PW was quite okay today. hahas. LOL.

~LoN3Ly M3~

Lost for words

2008-07-26T11:33:00.002+08:00
I'm just lost for words for everything that happened. Maybe it's just me, but i'm beginning to hate everything that i have. That i used to have. That i will have.

Why the future too? Maybe I'm just not as optimistic now as i used to be. Maybe you changed me too much. I'm not optimistic at all now. I don't want to be like this, but it's just not beyond my control. I tried. I tried very hard. It's just not going to happen.

Maybe I'll be stuck like this for 2 years. I want to leave you all. I want to keep myself from everyone. I want to find this happy place where i can be. I know this Utopia can never be found. But there should be this better place for me. Than here.

In your heart, maybe i'm nothing. I wished i was something. Or still am something. But i dared not clarify. I dared not cross that line. I dared not try. I dared not confront. I'm so scared to be hurt now. "Loved like you've never been hurt", i think i can never be match for this phrase.

I'm sick and tired. Sick and tired of being myself. I want to change. To change for better or worse, it doesn't matter. I just want to change. People call me emo. But i think i'm special. Coz i am who i am.

I know there is no coherence in what i am typing. And i don't really care. I just want to type whatever is in my head and my heart now. I may not have another of these chances.

I don't know what's that special thing in my life now. I don't know what i want. Maybe i do, but i dared not get that thing that i want. I don't want any one of you to pity me or sympathise with me. It's not worth it and i don't need it. Maybe just leaving me to rot will be so much better. How many of you out there reads my blog and actually care? I know i don't.

People come and go. But only true friends leave a special something in your heart. You guys did come and go and left something here. But i dared not want it now. It hurts too much to take it.

~LoN3Ly M3~

又一次

2008-07-18T03:34:00.003+08:00
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~LoN3Ly M3~

ME!!!! PISCES

2008-07-14T21:13:00.002+08:00
Other-worldly, ultra-sensitive and intuitive, you really need to be needed. Fantasy prone and alive in the world of your vivid imagination, you nevertheless suffer from fear of rejection and low self-esteem (although you hide this well in your efforts to create the ideal, loving environment for your loved ones). You seek a sensitive, soulful friend, but can be dazzled by appearances which scramble your naturally powerful radar and send you into a tailspin.

Pisces, a feminine sign, is tender and caring, but frequently subject to relationships where the other partner is domineering and uncaring. You submerge yourself in the experience of the other, which is okay, so long as that other is what he or she appears to be. In the event that your partner is truly sensitive, artistic (and preferably dying of consumption...), yet strong and caring (with a satisfactory income), you will soar on the wings of love and the relationship will be ecstatic and fulfilling to both parties.

On the other hand, should you have picked a rotten apple from the barrel, you'll prolong the agony to an interminable degree, for you will feel that you must have done something to deserve the misery and will flourish in the role of martyr. Ugh. If this happens to you, you must snap the chain of karma that has trapped you in the bubbling vat of despond and get out quickly before you drown. There are lots of really wonderful people out there who will sense your needs and return your emotional investment in the most glowing of terms...

Your emblem, the Fishes, shows your duality. The contrast between the opposing sides of your personality is quite startling. One side of you is heroically romantic, wistful, imaginative, sensitive, sexually fulfilled, perceptive, creative, intuitive, even transcendental, while the other is depressive, masochistic, suicidal, frustrated, guilt-ridden, filled with self-loathing and a general doormat. Moreover, you can flick from one to the other of these sides of your character and back again with alarming ease and rapidity! Pisces is a mutable sign, so you are best involved with a steadier, stronger personality who will tolerate and enjoy your romantic fantasies, yet still be there for you when the horrors strike deep in the night. There is no more loyal and caring lover than a piscean, but your need for emotional and sensual reassurance can lead to flirtations and dalliances that generate emotional instability. You are somewhat ambivalent in your sexuality and have been known to dabble in unusual relationships, including sexual explorations with members of the same sex and with multiple partners, group sex and of course you like nothing better than exploring your fantasies alone in the protected environment of self-stimulation.

Although you are the most loving and giving of the signs, your ability to select an inappropriate partner is legendary (bear this in mind as you suffer from the effects of delusion and haste). With the right partner, you are surely the ideal soul mate, lifelong friend and ally, although your sexuality reflects the needs of the other, to the extent that you can become confused as to what you really want and need. In the right relationship, your sexuality will blossom and become something of an artform, especially as you get a little older, more experienced and more confident.

~LoN3Ly M3~

2008-07-13T08:13:00.003+08:00
亲爱的：
你知道吗？这2天我们没通电话，我想你就快想疯了，满脑子都是你的影子在身边围绕，真的不知道是为什么？我真好想离开这个地方，离开这个让我伤心欲决的地方````可是我放不下你，我舍不得离开，我该怎么办啊，亲爱的？？？？
不知道为什么在你面前我的骄傲总是消失得无影无踪，但我从不觉得自己卑微，可怜，就算如此吧，我也依然愿意披着破碎的翅膀在你的天堂翱翔。我也曾多次问自己，你究竟是哪里好让我如此地义无返顾，就算迷失自己。

我们分开后，当我听到你和她又在一起的消息你知道我有多痛苦吗？我以为天塌了，我丢掉最后的自尊大哭起来，之前我还很傻的想要等你，因为有你给我的诺言。后来接二连三的听到你和她的消息，我是多恨你啊，恨你干嘛要爽约了约定，恨你干嘛不选择别人而偏偏是她？？
我被你打败了，遍体鳞伤。。

离开你的这些日子你知道我多难傲吗？！整夜整夜地哭，整夜整夜地失眠，让从没有黑眼圈，眼蛋的我变得像熊猫，朋友们现在也多次对我说：你怎么这么憔悴啊！我笑了，无奈地笑了。我不怪你，这一切都是我自作自受~！

我害怕你再次的说：我们分手吧~！那么我得再像从前那样，再一次的用尽自己所有的力气来忘记你，你知道这有多累吗？有时候我会说出让自己都心疼的话，我害怕听到自己不愿意听到的答案，害怕自己又一次的痛哭起来``我真怕悲剧又在我们身上重演，我再也玩不起那种分分合合的游戏，也不敢再玩了。

亲爱的，你曾说：要是我们分开了，叫我站在原地等你回来。那你现在还会回来吗？

你知道吗？就算我这样的疲惫与痛苦，最上说着不在乎，可是你知道吗？我一直都还在等你回来，等你回来我们再一起逛街；再一起谈心；再一起过属于我们幸福的日子；再一起诉说着比彼此的梦想；再一次的依偎在你的怀里；再次听你说：我爱你！~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~一起说着我们的承诺~！

亲爱的，你还会回来吗？我还在不听的问自己这样的问题，我真的很想知道你的答案，可是我却不敢问你，我害怕听到自己不愿意听到的结果，我真的好怕。

Adapted from internet essay. Was being bored and was reading. Came across this essay and thought that it is realli good.

I dun noe why. Ytd when i was reading a book, i cried. You must be thinking WTH right? I dun noe, i cried. Didnt cry for long already but the book, it made me cry. I felt so weird but i felt i wanted to cry and i did. Weird.. No explanation to why...

~LoN3Ly M3~

NJC Guitar Ensemble Concert

2008-07-12T13:02:00.004+08:00
Sorry for not updating for so long. Been super busy with little/no sleep at all.

Was busy chionging all the project and homeworks. Finally got to sleep for like 7hrs ytd night. Yeah.

Ytd did go to school coz all councillors from NJ went to cheer for the canoeing finals and we did alright. Got 2 second and 1 first. Was quite sad coz i tink the canoe team realli trained very hard.

Was happy to spot some of my sec sch frens there. So happy. Haven been contacting them for quite some time. Saw leon, hilary, roy, joshua, timothy and some more =)

Managed to take photo with my two dear ex-classmate. So happy =D

Anyway, got home at 4+ and wanted to go flowers for jo, ben and wai and the rest of my CHS ppl. But then was so tired tt i practically was immobilised... Sian.. Then went for the concert then was like going to be late liao lar...

Some pics (didnt upload everything):

Until next time then =)

~HaPpY M3~

Promise!!!

2008-07-05T15:29:00.000+08:00
I made a promise not to emo again. Next time you see me emo, give me a slap in the face and wake me up. I promise you wont get a chance to do it ;D

~LoN3Ly M3~

Happy Birthday Jia Jia

2008-07-02T20:42:00.005+08:00
Okay, today is my mei mei's bdae. We (ben, jo and i) planned everything from monday and thought today was quite dumb coz si jia (i call her jia jia) is like so blur and she just anyhow walk in the school and spoil the fun.

The whole thing is suppose to be like she'll be walking alone in the school from canteen to the grandstand. Then she'll see the paper that will say, 'Haha, you've just been pranked'

Then normally, ppl will looks so sian. Then we are suppose to pull party poppers then give her like suprise. Then we lag. SIGH... Then the cake will be brought out. But nevertheless, the effect was somehow there. Just abit weird to spoil the 'mystery' part.Haha.

CAKE COMING!!!

NICE BDAE CAKE!!!
Blowing out the cake

Nice photo =)

I posted all these photos here but i bet she's going to kill me if she knows i put these photos here...

~LoN3Ly M3~

我好累哦...我真的好累

2008-06-29T20:29:00.001+08:00
我好累哦...我真的好累...有一股想一睡就不起的冲动。如果都不醒来，就不会有那么多要烦恼的东西。就没有哪些问题。就不会遇到那么多人。也就不会有烦恼。

~LoN3Ly M3~

END OF CT

2008-06-26T23:35:00.000+08:00
Okay, i guess many people are finally relieved from this stress. Me too. I am quite happy that everything ended. It is just like a heavenly feeling.

Though it's after CT, today wasn't that much of a good day to me.

Maybe mood swing. Maybe something else. I'm not very sure though i think i am. Very contradicting right? Yes, coz this is what makes me up. I am a super confused guy who cant get his feelings to be right.

I dont know what i should feel. I dun know what happen. I dun know how i should react to stuffs. Sometimes, i so wished i was a stone in the pond that no one cares and just sink to the bottom. Why do i always want to run away from everything? I dont know. But it just feel so good sometimes not to tink of anything.

Anyway, i should be happy. I think i should be. But things just dun turn out to be this way. It always hurt me now.

~LoN3Ly M3~

IMU

2008-06-25T20:10:00.001+08:00
SIGH. At this time, i should be mugging bio. But i just cant settle my heart down. Hahas. NVM, tmr is the last day liao. I shant disturb others mugging. Jia you all my fren =D

~JaCkY MU~

Holiday is ending

2008-06-22T22:15:00.001+08:00
June holiday is effectively ending in another about 2 hours and i am really sad that the holiday is ending. It just happened to quickly and ended too quickly. I really hope that it's holiday everyday (maybe that's what most of us hoped for) but this is not gonna happen.

Common test is starting in almost all JC and of course, NJ is also having CT starting tmr. Tmr will be the most hectic day for me, having GP and econs tgt. Hai, not enough preparation yet but nvm, i can do all my best. =D

Everyone, jia you to you. All the best. I shld be back to mug liao =D

BYE!!!

~StReSseD M3~

Firefox Download Day

2008-06-18T01:00:00.001+08:00
From now on, it will be a day for firefox download day. They are trying to break Guinness World Record for having the most download in one day. Help =D

Just click below

So many things happened

2008-06-17T20:13:00.002+08:00
I am actually quite vexed over the many things that happened. I want to control my feelings and emotions but i guess i am born like that. I JUST CANT!!!

1. Badminton
It's like i just don't feel like i belong to the team now. Everyone is like so experienced and good but i just make the grade. And sometimes when i can't perform as well, it's not like i don't want to but i can't. Just like the fix drill the other day. Me and alex were not really able to get it right. It's not like we do not want to do it well k? Stupid. I mean like, Catholic High has got no badminton team. If i was trained and performed like that, i will be so ashamed. And i tried giving my best. Even the last training, my leg was super painful until now still pain. I cannot run now. I cannot jump. I cannot exercise now. But why did i still try so hard for training the other day? I dont know. Badminton is like my life. I enjoy playing it. I really love it. It's not like i dont want to train. It's just i am still not there. Time is needed. I am not like you. You learned before and was in the team. I AM NOT!!! Dont always expect others to be like you. Yes, i agree that i am lousy. But do you think you are so great? I tried my best.

I really feel like quitting after the last training. I am not really happy in the team now. I dont want to think about it also. I just want to learn to play badminton and play like someone who can play. I want to continue, but can I?

2. Relationship
I have been really vexed about this. I dont know if you are reading this now or not but i still decided to post this. I am so vexed. I want to like run away from everything now and just start anew. Maybe from scratch. Maybe if God give me this chance to feel numb about everything, I would gladly accept it. I am in pain now. Why is it always like this. I dont know why and how. I just want to be with myself now. I just cannot stop thinking about this. Maybe i should just quit being myself. I hate myself now. I really hate myself now. It's not your problem. It's just me. I just dont understand myself at times too. Dont ask me why and how? I dont want to think about it now!!!But i still want you to be there for me.

3. Study
I so feel like dropping out of school. I know that most of the people out there have got this problem too. It's not just me. But i feel so lousy now. I just dont feel good about studying. Maybe i was wrong. Maybe someone can guide me along?

The 3 main things that really bothers me. I want to run away from everything. Maybe it's time for me to stay away from all electronic stuffs and get detached from the world until the term starts again. It's time to chill and think carefully...

~VEXeD M3~

Back In Singapore

2008-06-06T21:29:00.000+08:00
Hahas. Finally back to civilisation. Lol. I went for YLTC (Youth Leader Training Camp) in Kluang, Malaysia. The campsite is quite wuuluu so we all say there no civilisation. Hahas.

5 days YLTC camp in Kluang,malaysia is definitely memorable because of the activities and the people there, especially SEMANGAT!!! They are all so friendly and working really well even though we only know one another for like 5 days. It was really a great camp. Though there are some unhappy things about the camp too. But overall, the camp was superb =D

Day 1, 02/06/08
Woke up at 5 am just to pack my bag coz the previous day was having class outing and went home super late. Anyway, went to school to report by 7am and then did a stupid bag check. Luckily not like elects camp. I still remember how we did the stupid bag check during elects camp. "30 seconds to take your shirts out" was like the thing we did back in elects camp and like all our clothes are at the bottom. Hahas. The bag check for this camp gives up ample time to take out and slowly pack everything inside. Then took bus to Malaysia liao lor =D Bus ride was quite boring. Coz molina whom we always laughed at sat far away from us. Then ziyi got knocked out like real quick. So we slept tgt. Hahas. Sounds wrong. Anyway, the trip is boring and stuffs lar. We reached at about the afternoon. Went to lunch and it started raining. So we got splitted up to learn different things. 1 group went for navigation, 1 group went to knots course and 1 group went to pitch tent =D

I went to learn the knots for river-crossing. It is super easy and like i took less than 5 mins to learn the knots while other are struggling. Hahas. Then we put out things in the tent and stuffs and then went for nightwalk at night. I went with yue xi. It was super hilarious lar. They told us there is this path to follow whereby there is no path at all. Yue Xi and i were like "are we on the right path?", "there is not path wat?", "scared anot?" The walk is not scary but rather stupid. Haha. It ended so quickly that before we want to be afraid, it was over. Lol.

Some stupid things during the nightwalk. People shouting "tree branches" whereby there is only a branch. Then got people shout "bend down" then the message got pass down so quickly that everyone bent down and they are not even at the area that they need to bend down. And one more, people shout "puddle" then the next pair just step right into it. Haha.

Then went back to wash up =D a very slack day =D

Day 2, 03/06/08
Rise and shine of course. Some ppl in my tent just like to wake ppl up. He woke up at 5.40 and was making quite some noise. Couldnt really sleep after that. Hahas. Then kinda woke up liao. Then did area cleaning. Guys' toilet is like super disgusting. But after going over to the girl's toilet to help clear the choked drain, i found out that guys are so much cleaner. LOL!!!

Anyway, first activity is rafting. Jo-lin is in my group then the both of us or rather the whole half of semangat was helping to build the raft. TEAMWORK ROCKS!!! Our raft is like good lar =D

Then had navigation in the afternoon but the rain was so heavy that the instructors dun allow us to do the activity. Then we went to the shelter and slacked. Stupid lar. Played some lame games and i kena forfeit. Did 7 wonders with maxine and mervyn. So unlucky lor. Then molina and dian feng didnt get to do forfeit. Cheater !!!

Then had some leadership talk in the night and most of us almost fell asleep. Hahas. But i didnt sleep k =D Was straining my eye to keep them open =D

Day 3, 04/06/08
Rise and shine again. Area cleaning as usual. It was the girls toilet and due to the rain. The toilet is in super bad condition. It is like SHIT. And i mean it. Coz all the flying ant died in the toilet. The guy's toilet sink is even worse. Half of the sink is filled with dead flying ants.

Then we chiong all the activities today. Did canoeing in the morning and then river-crossing and then navigation. Quite busy day. Really nothing much to update about. Lol. Coz it is hard to describe especially if u are not there. Ask me next time when you see me lar. Then maybe i can give a better picture of it =D

Day 4, 05/06/08
Mountain climbing today. Was very easy i think. Then went for city trail. Went around the city and the city is actually quite nice. As compared to what i had in mind lar. Hahas. Very bad image. Went to a hotel and the toilet is like super clean. Many of my group ppl went in and spent like 5 - 10mins inside. Hahas.

Then went around buying things and stuffs. Then night rained again and no activity. Then after tt, didnt sleep. Chatted with ppl the whole night =D

Day 5, 06/06/08
Stupid PT thing and stuffs. Ran and rolled in mud and stuffs. MY TEAM NJ SHIRT. GOD DAMN THEM. Okay, i shall chill. Not gonna be tt vulgar here. Hahas.

Actually, that's about all bah. I bet u all will like read the 1st 2 sentences of each day nia. Hahas. Really too boring for u all if u not there.

~HaPpY M3~

My 400th Post

2008-05-31T21:13:00.002+08:00
Haha. My 400th post. Quite suprising. Blog for so long liao. Anyway, my mum is like back in taiwan liao and i am the only one at home. Till 13 Jun. Anyway, going to post some wise things. Haha

~LoN3Ly M3~

Tired

2008-05-27T23:38:00.000+08:00
Okay, been very busy and has got training. Today training was quite tough i guess. Maybe not. But then just plain tired and slept right after dinner. Until just now.

Nothing much to update. Since tmr has got chem SPA and i am not really studying yet, so i decided to post something here. Hehex.

~HaPpY M3~

First Day of Holiday

2008-05-26T22:54:00.000+08:00
Haha. Today is officially the first day of school holiday. And guess what, i am already starting with make-up lectures and other make-up lessons. And what's worse, i had a camp briefing and also cleaning up of council room and student lounge. It is really in a mess. Haha.

Anyway, my first two weeks of the holiday will be gone and i dun tink i am like very free in the 3rd and 4th week. Hahas.

~LoN3Ly M3~

Investiture and Class Dinner

2008-05-24T08:09:00.002+08:00
Okay, I guess I should be happy now. I guess i am. Not really sure. Maybe i don't know my feelings now too. Haha.

Anyway, i finally got the sleep i wanted. But thanks to going to college, my biological clock wont allow me to sleep more than 6 hours normally. So i managed to sleep for like 8 hours ytd night. Quite happy already.

Anyway, yesterday is my investiture. I am finally invested. Haha. Didnt make it to EXCO and stuffs. Currently the Vice-Head of CIA (Committee of Internal Affair).

Anyway, will be posting pictures soon.

Class Dinner. Haha. Yes, not my class dinner. I mean, i didnt eat anything. I don't know why, i just don't feel like eating and i am like really dead now. Haha. Quite happy that she came back. =)

Anyway, gtg do pw liao. Bye

~M3~

Stressed and Tired

2008-05-23T04:04:00.000+08:00
I am really very tired. Many things happened in school and I just cant stop thinking about them. Every time i close my eye, something happened.

I didnt sleep for about close to 30 hours and still counting. I will not be sleep till after investiture and after lesson and after my class dinner and after i get home. Which i think will be another 16 hours bah. I am really tired. I want to sleep. But i just cant fall asleep.

~DrAiNeD M3~

Yet Another 1st Time

2008-05-20T01:42:00.000+08:00
Okay. I really didnt know why i did this. I just did.

I wished i could post this. But i dun noe how to start.

Anyway, it was like my first time going out at night just because i got a sms. But i really want to go out.

~HaPpY M3~

For the 1st time

2008-05-12T20:57:00.002+08:00
My problems are finally pushing me to the limit. For the first time in my life. I am finally breaking down. Maybe you know me as the cheerful and funny and lame yu hung but time have change. I am no longer that me.

I feel so hollow. So like a walking zombie. So like a empty shell.

Problems are building up. I don't know how to handle now. I just feel like crying. I just feel like breaking down. I just feel like not caring for anything anymore.

For 17 years, I did not cry for any problems that i have encountered, coz i noe that everything will work out eventually. But now, i am crying in front of my computer, while typing this. I can no longer see the keys i am pressing now. I can no longer see clearly the screen. I can no longer see my life as a wonderful one.

Breaking down. Maybe that sounds stupid to you. But what do you know. I'm breaking down. I want to run away from all these problems. But they just wont leave me. What can i do? It is not just my problems that is troubling me. I have so much more problem. Other people's problem. I don't know what deep shit i got into this time. Maybe sleeping will help me feel so much better. But the problems are haunting me, prohibiting me from sleeping.

Who to help me? Who to pity me? Who to care for me? Who to save me?

Maybe it will all come down to myself again. All i have with me is me, me, me and more problems.

It hurts so much. It seriously does hurt. I am trying to be strong, but my heart seem to be bleeding... and it's really badly....and it just got worse. No one to heal my soul, no one to stitch my heart, no one to lessen my pain, no one for me to lean on.

Maybe i am born loner. Maybe i am not even meant to be here. Maybe my existence is absurd. Maybe i am... i am... i am......

There is just so much possibility to that. I don't really want to think about it anymore. My head is splitting. And i mean it. It is really splitting. I just don't want to think about it now. Just don't want to face it...

~SuP3R UnHaPpY M3~

SOLARIS, WE BITE REAL HARD =)

2008-05-07T22:00:00.002+08:00
Today is the track and field meet and SOLARIS is proud to say WE HAVE WIN THE WAR THIS TIME =)

Anyway, i ran for the 4X100m race and guess what? I hurt my thigh. Haha. And i am so suffering from pain now. Haha. Walking is not really a problem i guess. But then i kinda cant climb stairs. I will be strolling around the school too. Hai, tmr still got badminton match and i cant play. Lol. NVM, my turn will come soon. I hope.

Anyway, solaris is really doing good today and will be doing just as well. =)

I am confident of the house. SOLARIS, WE ROCK ON =)

~HaPpY M3~

Disappointment

2008-05-05T21:58:00.002+08:00
Haha. Disappointment one after another. Sad to say this but yeah, it's happening again. It is like everytime i get really involved in something, something just slipped away. Same as what happened to me 2 years ago. This feeling sucks. Though i have somewhat admitted and accept my fate, i am just not happy. I don't get all these shit and stuffs that goes on in my life. I mean like, it is just so unexpected and unbelievable.

Never mind about all those stuffs already. Maybe sometimes it will be good for me. I hope that it is good. Nights people.

~UnHaPpY M3~

Labour Day

2008-05-02T21:33:00.002+08:00
Hello. Do u all noe what labour day means? It is not a holiday, but a day for u to work extra hard. Die..

Anyway, ytd was studying with _______ in the morning and then went to shaun's house for PW. What's the funniest thing? Is that i am not from his PW group. haha. Coz my group doing PW too then ben met tze tze and she told us they doing PW too. So we went to Shaun's house coz AMK hub is like fully packed and the library is not opened.

So we worked extra hard until i dun even have the time for lunch. Haha. Then i didnt have dinner coz there were nothing to eat at home and it was pretty late when i got home. Then today morning had to rush to school like super early so i didnt have my breakfast too. Cool right? Haha. But i brought a packet of prawn crackers and ate it during my double GP period =)

Anyway, schedule is really hectic and stuffs. When can i not be busy and have more time for her? Hai. Sian. I am like so dead now. I feel so like walking zombie=)

~HaPpY M3~

House Captain

2008-04-29T23:17:00.002+08:00
Okay, I ran for the Solaris house captain and i didnt get it. My classmate got it and i am pretty happy. Sadness does set in but i think it is good that she got it. It is not i doubt my ability but i know it will make me stronger. And i will be able to contribute to my house more. EXCO or not does not matter too much as it is just a title. Maybe it will look a bit better on testimonial but the process that we all learn from the council term is sure gonna be so much more fruitful. =)

Congrats to Yu Rui for becoming the house cap. All the way Yu Rui, dun disappoint me =)

Congrats to Kenneth too for becoming the honorary treasurer and sorry that i wasn't there when the voting takes place.

Congrats to myself for getting 1st in the heats for 4X 100m race. YEAH =)

Congrats to Letts for becoming the president and he is from SOLARIS =)

Let this exco election be all our pushing factor and let's all becoming better =)

All the best people =)

~HaPpY M3~

Joke =)

2008-04-21T21:19:00.001+08:00
Okay, here's a little joke before i start to talk about all the boring stuff about school. Haha..

A judge scowled down at a repeat offender before him. "Haven't I seen you in here many times already? And didn't I tell you that I never wanted to see you in here again?"
"Yes, Your Honor," the defendant replied. "That's exactly what I told the police officer, but he insisted I come in anyway!"

Okay, that's the little joke for you guys. Anyway, i am really tired and drained from all the things going on. Tmr still got math lecture test and i haven study for it yet. Haha.

Anyway, need some time to post on my blog. So i guess i may not be posting as often and updating as often. Anyway, i am happy =) That's all i have to say. This is the life i choose to live and i live it to the fullest =)

~HaPpY M3~

Drained

2008-04-19T06:39:00.002+08:00
Okay, i havent been updating for so long because i have been very tired. I think i am going to fall apart. But i promised to persevere and push myself on.

Okay, why am i posting so early like 6+ am in the morning? Because i was so tired ytd night that i just fell asleep on my bed. This is like a routine for me nowadays. Every time i see my bed, i am so tempted to lie on the bed and tell myself that i am just resting for a while but yet, i fell asleep. That has happened many times.

Anyway, my schedule are so tight that i really dun have much time for other activity and for someone else. I feel so guilty and bad. I am not being a good guy. Hai, i am realli sorrie. Hope you read this. =)

Anyway, tests are driving me up the wall. Studying for the test seems to be of little help or maybe, not even a little bit of help. It just helps you to understand the question or maybe worse, make you even more confused. Especially econs, i tink studying for the test really make not much difference. Will still fail anyway.

Anyway, talking about tues regarding the chem VA (varied assessment), it is so god damn bloody dumb. I was wanting to post and rant that day but i didnt have the time coz i am damn busy. I just dun get the level of intelligence of the HOD of science. How come he/she/it is so brainless. The presentation was suppose to be during the double period chemistry lesson but then they made us all stay back on a day and hold us until so late just to make us present. It is just 10% and they make it sound or look as if it was going to be 90% of the whole year grade. I mean like, we already put in so much effort in doing it and they still hold us back for so long. Wat's worse, we were told that we can move it to earlier which is 5.30 instead of the usual 6.30. My class were so happy, we went there at 5.30 and we were forced to wait until 6.45 or later than that. I mean like, dun tell us something that is not going to happen. We were just stoning for 1 hour outside the class and like doing nothing. We could all have used that 1 hour to do tutorial or read notes for the upcoming test. It is just so dumb. And our presentation should be only 12 mins and some groups took like 20 mins. It is so fucking dumb. I mean like, you set the rule, u follow the rule. Why bother to make it 12 mins whereby you are going to let all the groups just continue like this. Anyway, i just feel that they really shouldnt have hold us back for so long. The thing is that we all left at close to 9pm and the thing is that not everyone live close to the school. At least many ppl in my class live in the east and it is damn freaking far from school. They need close to 1 hour to get home and come on, they are girls. HOW ON EARTH DO YOU EXPECT THEM TO GO HOME BY THEMSELVES AT NIGHT, ESPECIALLY LATE AT NIGHT. IT IS NOT LIKE 7 PM WHEREBY IT IS STILL NOT THAT DARK. IT IS FREAKING 9PM AND THEY HAVE TO GO HOME ALONE. DO YOU THINK IT IS SAFE? I JUST SO THINK THAT THE TEACHERS ARE NOT THINKING.

Anyway, i shall not rant anymore on the Chem VA stuff. It just spoils my mood and i am not going to say a thing liao.

Okay, then later, i will be having friendly match with HCI. Erm, then maybe do some homework and that's it for the day. I really need some other time for my personal matter and relaxation.

~HaPpY M3~

Elects Camp

2008-04-13T23:00:00.002+08:00
Woohoo. Finally, it is over. We had to live without phone, without money and what's the worse? Payback.

Payback was like piling up more and more each day with each mistake we made. Thank you seniors for doing the payback with us. I really think that the seniors are great.

Anyway, we really learned a lot from it and i am kinda exhausted now. So i am going to sleep. Sorrie.

~HaPpY M3~

BUSY

2008-04-10T21:37:00.001+08:00
Okay, i am so busy everyday that i dun realli get the time to update my blog. Anyway, really doubting how many ppl actually read my blog and stuffs. Haha, anyway, just here to tell you that you wont be able to contact me from tmr (friday) all the way to coming sunday. Coz i will be having elects camp (for council) and i dun get the luxury to use my fone. Anyway, realli busy, haven do homework, haven pack bag. Die liao...

~StReSsEd M3~

Yet another random post

2008-03-30T19:24:00.003+08:00
Finally, a little break for me. Went to SNGS funfair ytd but wasn't really that great. Maybe because the school was too big...

Anyway, tried Meteriote ytd and my neck is aching today. Gosh, my whole body is actually aching. Coz ytd had training in the morning and it is quite intensive. Didnt feel the pain in the afternoon but today. Gosh, tmr still got PE, nvm, training. =)

Feeling happy somethings these few days but really stressed out at times too. Maybe it would just be over soon. The stressed out part, not the happy part.

~HaPpY M3~

Random

2008-03-26T19:38:00.004+08:00
Okay, i really dont want to rant here and this post that i am typing now is like the 3rd one that i am typing. All the previous 2 were like ranting about hectic work and some other things happening behind my back and stuffs so they were deleted. So i am now posting something that is not ranting.

Okay, i think i am a bit out of luck now. Dun noe why, i sprained my ankle the other day and it is lot better now. and i am going for training tmr. Then, mysteriously i caught a flu and even had fever. It was just a slight one though, like 38+, cant rmb now. Panadols worked but i am still having soar throat and runny nose now.

And council things are really getting harder and harder and i seem to have too little to be there for her. Even my classmates, i am not there for them too. Even my family. I really had so little time to talk to them now. It is like i go to sch before they wake up and i may end up coming home after they sleep. It is quite illogical coz it shld be the other way round. But nvm, i told myself that it will only happen for this 2 weeks. After that, no more...

And sch work is like piling up and preparation for test is left there. Dun realli have the time to look through the notes. haha.

Anyway, gonna work on my stuffs now. Bye

~HaPpY Y3T TiR3D M3~

Really Tired

2008-03-21T18:57:00.002+08:00
Okay, 1st thing, dun laugh at me if u see me in sch with the weird hairstyle. I dun want it to be like this too.

The barber was so good that he shaved me... Something happened...

Anyway, i am really tired and really drained. Lack of sleep is driving me up the wall and i think i am going nuts sooner or later.

I got past council interview. I didnt really expect that. Or rather, i did not even thought i could make it coz i realli did very badly. But since i am a council candidate now, i hope that i have ur supports. Thanx =)

Anyway, there are so many things going on and 24 hours a day never seem enough for me now. How i wished time could just pause for the moment and let me have a couple more hours of sleep and rest and time to meet up with her. I kinda feel bad about not being free.

I had so many things in my mind that i dun noe what to do first. But i guess this is the stage in my life that i have to prioritise and give up some things to do. But nevertheless, i will not give up on what i had just started.

Forgive me if i always seem so busy. Forgive me for not doing so many things. Forgive me for not being there for you. Forgive me for not being caring. Sorry.

~DrAiN3D AnD TiR3D M3~

50 Nerdy/Geeky Pick Up Lines~

2008-03-19T08:21:00.000+08:00
1. You’re like an exothermic reaction, you spread your hotness everywhere!

2. I wish I was your derivative so I could lie tangent to your curves.

3. You’re like a dictionary, you add meaning to my life!

4. If I was an enzyme, I’d be helicase so I could unzip your genes.

5. I’m attracted to you so strongly, scientists will have to develop a fifth fundamental force.

6. Baby, you overclock my processor.

7. Be my queen and mate me with your knight moves.

8. Baby, you make my floppy disk turn into a hard drive

9. You make me want to calibrate my joystick without the latest drivers.

10.You defragment my life.

11. Do you think we can make it a step more serious and disable network sharing?

12. You must be auxin, cause you are causing me to have rapid stem elongation.

13. Baby, let me find your nth term.

14. I don’t have a library card, but do you mind if I check you out?

15. Baby I’ll treat you like my homework — I’ll slam you on the table and do you all night long

16. Hey baby, can I see what’s under your radical?

17. If I were an integral, I’d fill you up.

18. I’m a fermata… hold me

19. I think my heart just lagged.

20. I wish I were your second derivative so I could fill your concavities.

21. Did you just combust?? Because you’re HOT!

22. By looking at you I can tell you’re 36-25-36, which by the way are all perfect squares.

23. It doesn’t take a genius to see how gorgeous you are, but if it did, I would be overqualified.

24. Baby, if you were words on a page, you’d be what they call FINE PRINT!

25. What do you say we go back to my room and do some math: Add a bed, subtract our clothes, divide your legs, and multiply

26. Baby, you’re a 9.999999999…but you’d be a 10 if you were with me.

27. Baby, every time I see you, my cardiovascular system gets all worked up

28. I wish I were adenine because then I could get paired with U.

29. What’s your sine? It must be pi/2 because you’re the 1

30. If my right leg was Christmas and my left was Easter, would you like to spend some time between the holidays?

31. You have nicer legs than an Isosceles right triangle.

32. You’re so cute you make my zygomaticus muscles contract. (Muscles that make you smile)

33. When you and me get together it’s like superposition of 2 waves in phase.

34. Want to meet up so I can excite your natural frequency?

35. If I was sin^2 and you were cos^2 together we would be 1

36. You know.. it’s not the length of the vector that counts… it’s how you apply the force

37. If I move my lips half the distance to yours… and then half again… and again… etc…. would they ever meet? no? Well in this specific case I am going to disprove your assumption.

38. Your name is Leslie? Look, I can spell your name on my calculator!

39. If I was an endoplasmic reticulum, how would you want me: smooth or rough?

40. I wish I was an Ion so I could form an exothermic bond with you.

41. If my right leg is the cell wall and my left the membrane, do you want to be the cytoplasm?

42. Our love is like dividing by zero…. you cannot define it

43. Let’s meet somewhere… you bring your beaker and I’ll bring my stirring rod

44. Baby let me be your integral so I can be the area under your curves

45. Hey baby, what’s your tanx cosx?

46. Let’s get together and test the spring potential of my mattress

47. Let’s discover our coefficient of friction

48. Baby, you’re so gneiss I’ll never take you for granite.

49. I less than three you….. (i < 3 you)

50. I heard you’re sin because you’re always on top when we make tangent

~HaPpY M3~

Busy

2008-03-16T21:06:00.001+08:00
OMG, i just realised that today is the last day of the school holiday. I am really not free for the whole of the holiday. I was busy going out and doing so many projects, video and some other misc stuffs. But i guess it was fruitful. The times spent together was just too good. =)

Anyway, i am still rushing out the video for the IFD. Last part already. Jia You Yu Hung... Haha. Being quite lame but yeah. =)

~HaPpY M3~

Happy

2008-03-15T09:20:00.000+08:00
Was tiring but enjoyed myself. =)

~HaPpY M3~

Hello

2008-03-13T22:36:00.001+08:00
Okay, i am once again back here. I am really busy for the whole week of the holiday but i am trying to find time to post in my blog.

So, on tues, i was studying at library. Wed, doing chem project and today, had training and went for filming for ifd.

Really tired now and i am collapsing. Going to fall apart....

~HaPpY M3~

Zoo

2008-03-10T23:12:00.000+08:00
Went to zoo today. Very fun and tiring also. Tmr is yet another big day for me. Have to sleep early to get my things done. Buai. See you soon. ZZZzzzZZZzzz...

~HaPpY M3~

ZHPS Camp

2008-03-09T22:52:00.000+08:00
Okay, haven been posting for long and it is because of the pile of work that i have and also the preparation for the camp. I went there as facil and it is really tiring.

Back today and is posting. I dun have too much time to post. Sorry pals, update more next time. =)

Zheng Hua Primary School Camp

~HaPpY M3~

=)

2008-03-05T19:34:00.003+08:00
Today is just any other school day. I guess it is anyway. I was still hoping of some surprise sms or something good to happen today. And i was even doubted about today.

Haha. Anyway, have to thank some people in my blog today:
1. Lai Meng for being the 1st one to sms me.
2. Lee Jing for smsing me too =)
3. Kuan Yu for still rmbing my bdae
4. Shawn Lee to be the 1st guy to sms me
5. Mindy, Yin Wai, Yu Rui, Zi Yun, Ben, Shaun and dun noe who else... (my good frens lar) for buying me a present
6. Mindy for sms me so early
7. Yin Wai (brother) for the late sms
8. Zi Yun (dear mei) for sending me a sms too =)
9. Ben for the msg too
10.Kok Wah for the keychain
11. For anyone who rmb my day
12. For anyone who doubted me...
13. For those who forgot completely...

~HaPpY M3~

It is just so hard

2008-03-03T21:20:00.001+08:00
Many things happened in school. Erm, many of which are unhappy things and i dun wish to spread this unhappy mood to others. Anyway, i found that i cant talk to many ppl in the school anymore.

Some other things are just so hard. To meet with one another is yet another hard thing.

Hai, i just have to adapt. I have to change too.

~HaPpY M3~